The lack of sleep. 5:20 this morning I am wide awake. I might have fallen asleep at 1:30am at the earliest. This is getting ridiculous. I cannot sleep for more than 4 hours at a time anymore. I did not sleep at all Thursday night. I did get a small nap Friday during the day, but not enough to cover even half a night's worth of rest.
Well, the guy my father in law hired to come help with the baby room was supposed to come today. And he did show up. And then left again to go get more tools at home. Two hours later, he's no where to be found. My father in law calls him and he says, "Oh sorry, my wife got called into work. I have to play Mommy." So he is coming tomorrow. Seriously though, wouldn't you have the decency to call as soon as you found that out? Jason has been sitting around all morning waiting. I even cleaned a bunch downstairs to make sure the space was ready to be worked on.
I am sure this is normal, to some degree, but I'm feeling really alone lately. It's great talking to my cousin, as she just had her baby nine months ago and it gives me someone to relate to, but for the rest of my friends, for the most part, I feel really distant. I feel like I am losing them. It breaks my heart. Don't want to make this post too depressing, but had to get that off my chest.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Friday, February 12, 2010
Week 29, Snow, School, Stress, and some other S words
S words....that reminds me of a Celebrity Jeopardy episode from SNL. I'll take Swords for $200 Alex. That's S Words, oh nevermind.
Well I've reached week 29. Sleep (ah ha, another s word!) has been very hit or miss. As I type this, it is 10:30am. I never went to sleep last night. I tried, believe me I did. It just never came. I cannot lay in bed awake too long. I start thinking about all of my stressors and it just worries me even more, making matters worse.
School has been totally kicking my butt lately. I'm taking two courses this semester, and while one of them is cake, the other one is a mess. I have to create a course, beginning to end, on a topic of my choice. I do love my topic though - Baby Sign Language. Jason and I are completely on board for teaching Henry to sign. I took over 3 years of sign language while in high school and college, and it is amazing how much of it I still know.
This book has been our favorite and I highly, highly recommend it to anyone who is interested in teaching their baby to sign. The benefits of baby sign language are countless. I could spend an entire post on just that. But I won't!
So, the snow. Yesterday we received the largest amount of snow that Texas has seen in one day in recorded history. It's completely insane how much we got. The DFW airport reported 12.5 inches. I know to my MD/VA friends, this is nothing. But for here, it is completely unprecedented. While it is a bit frustrating being stuck at home (we cannot make it out of the neighborhood in our Civic, well ok, I don't want to try), it is also absolutely beautiful outside.
It's been a lot of fun walking around in it with Jason. He's been very reminiscent of his childhood up in Washington. They spent a lot of time skiing. Me, personally, I've never seen more snow than this and of course have never been skiing. Absolutely beautiful! Especially since Jason and Mike (my father in law) were able to dry out the satellite. I MUST be able to watch the Olympics tonight. Opening ceremony! SQUEEEE!!!! (another s word!)
One week from tomorrow is my shower (oh my, there's another one!). Can't wait. I'm so lucky to have such a wonderful family that cares so much about me to throw this for me. My grandmother has really outdone herself. I think she's just as excited about Henry as we are. From the way she acts, possibly even more so!
Ok, that's enough S Words for one day.
Well I've reached week 29. Sleep (ah ha, another s word!) has been very hit or miss. As I type this, it is 10:30am. I never went to sleep last night. I tried, believe me I did. It just never came. I cannot lay in bed awake too long. I start thinking about all of my stressors and it just worries me even more, making matters worse.
School has been totally kicking my butt lately. I'm taking two courses this semester, and while one of them is cake, the other one is a mess. I have to create a course, beginning to end, on a topic of my choice. I do love my topic though - Baby Sign Language. Jason and I are completely on board for teaching Henry to sign. I took over 3 years of sign language while in high school and college, and it is amazing how much of it I still know.
This book has been our favorite and I highly, highly recommend it to anyone who is interested in teaching their baby to sign. The benefits of baby sign language are countless. I could spend an entire post on just that. But I won't!So, the snow. Yesterday we received the largest amount of snow that Texas has seen in one day in recorded history. It's completely insane how much we got. The DFW airport reported 12.5 inches. I know to my MD/VA friends, this is nothing. But for here, it is completely unprecedented. While it is a bit frustrating being stuck at home (we cannot make it out of the neighborhood in our Civic, well ok, I don't want to try), it is also absolutely beautiful outside.
It's been a lot of fun walking around in it with Jason. He's been very reminiscent of his childhood up in Washington. They spent a lot of time skiing. Me, personally, I've never seen more snow than this and of course have never been skiing. Absolutely beautiful! Especially since Jason and Mike (my father in law) were able to dry out the satellite. I MUST be able to watch the Olympics tonight. Opening ceremony! SQUEEEE!!!! (another s word!)One week from tomorrow is my shower (oh my, there's another one!). Can't wait. I'm so lucky to have such a wonderful family that cares so much about me to throw this for me. My grandmother has really outdone herself. I think she's just as excited about Henry as we are. From the way she acts, possibly even more so!
Ok, that's enough S Words for one day.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Third Trimester, Here I Come!
Well I've officially survived the entire 2nd trimester and have started the last leg of the run. I'm 28 weeks as of today. It seems like the weeks pass more slowly lately. I think it is because I think of him so much, and every week I get more and more excited to meet him.
I had my glucose tolerance test on Monday to check for Gestational Diabetes. I'm in the clear! I tested with a 121 and they want you to be under 135 before the test again. What a relief! I was really worried I'd turn up with GD - the last thing I wanted. I think I just assume the worst far too often. So many people seem to have to take the 3 hour test or even end up with GD these days. I'm very fortunate to not be one of those people.
We had to go back today for the actual appointment after a scheduling issue on Monday. The doctor wasn't at the office we normally go to Monday, buuuut no one ever told us that. The doctor checked everything and all my numbers are pretty much bang on. Blood pressure is fine, urine samples fine, glucose fine, heartbeat of the baby fine, size of uterus, fine. Pretty much everything is exactly as it should be.
Next appointment will be February 25th at 31 weeks. We start our Lamaze Class February 11th and are having the baby shower on February 20th. Busy busy month for us!
Now if I can just avoid the stress from school eventually killing me, we'll be great!
I had my glucose tolerance test on Monday to check for Gestational Diabetes. I'm in the clear! I tested with a 121 and they want you to be under 135 before the test again. What a relief! I was really worried I'd turn up with GD - the last thing I wanted. I think I just assume the worst far too often. So many people seem to have to take the 3 hour test or even end up with GD these days. I'm very fortunate to not be one of those people.
We had to go back today for the actual appointment after a scheduling issue on Monday. The doctor wasn't at the office we normally go to Monday, buuuut no one ever told us that. The doctor checked everything and all my numbers are pretty much bang on. Blood pressure is fine, urine samples fine, glucose fine, heartbeat of the baby fine, size of uterus, fine. Pretty much everything is exactly as it should be.
Next appointment will be February 25th at 31 weeks. We start our Lamaze Class February 11th and are having the baby shower on February 20th. Busy busy month for us!
Now if I can just avoid the stress from school eventually killing me, we'll be great!
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Week 25
Well I have officially made it to week 25 and STILL am not showing. I can definitely tell more and more every day that I have a little one growing inside of me, but the world has no clue. While I know to some people this might be a blessing, as they'd be glad to keep people from asking them questions and wanting to touch their stomach, and while I do not welcome the touching part, I would like very much for people to see me as a pregnant woman. I feel like a fraud walking around Babies R Us and Target with a scanner in my hand. Or people must think that I am really early along, so why am I Even registering yet? Yes, I know these are silly and crazy, but you can be silly and crazy when you are 25weeks pregnant, right?
Speaking of registries, that was our big accomplishment of the weekend, going to both BRU and Target to register. BRU was having a baby shower that day with games and I guess prizes, so tons of people were there. There was actually a waiting list for the scanners. We lucked out and happenedto be there when someone returned it and we were top of the list, but there were about four couples behind us waiting.
What hassle BRU turned out to be. I had started a registry online but only had three items on it. They convinced me in store to delete the old one and start a new one since I will get some sort of coupon for 10% off whatever is left on the registry. So we fill out all the paperwork, give them a password to use and they say they will delete the old one and create the new one.
WRONG! They never deleted the old one and on top of that they never entered our password on the new registry. So basically there were two registries floating around and we could not access the correct one since it had no password on the account. I had to call customer service this week and get it straightened out, but luckily they were really easy to deal with.
Our Target was rather disappointing in the baby section. There were maybe 6 rows to look at and half the stuff was useless to us. Only three crib sets to look at. They didn't have the bedding we want either. We're going to have to go to another Target in Houston when visiting my mom and get more stuff put on the list. I know people are going to want to buy this little boy stuff for his shower!
Speaking of registries, that was our big accomplishment of the weekend, going to both BRU and Target to register. BRU was having a baby shower that day with games and I guess prizes, so tons of people were there. There was actually a waiting list for the scanners. We lucked out and happenedto be there when someone returned it and we were top of the list, but there were about four couples behind us waiting.
What hassle BRU turned out to be. I had started a registry online but only had three items on it. They convinced me in store to delete the old one and start a new one since I will get some sort of coupon for 10% off whatever is left on the registry. So we fill out all the paperwork, give them a password to use and they say they will delete the old one and create the new one.
WRONG! They never deleted the old one and on top of that they never entered our password on the new registry. So basically there were two registries floating around and we could not access the correct one since it had no password on the account. I had to call customer service this week and get it straightened out, but luckily they were really easy to deal with.
Our Target was rather disappointing in the baby section. There were maybe 6 rows to look at and half the stuff was useless to us. Only three crib sets to look at. They didn't have the bedding we want either. We're going to have to go to another Target in Houston when visiting my mom and get more stuff put on the list. I know people are going to want to buy this little boy stuff for his shower!
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
The Crying Game
It seems everything makes me cry these days. This of course was true on New Years Day. It was a gift my mother in law gave, and it wasn't even to me, it was to my father in law. She made an appointment for him to go to the doctor to get fitted for hearing aids. He wants to be able to hear Henry.
Now my father in law is a big, tough man. He doesn't cry. At least I didn't think he did. When realized what they were he actually had to leave the room he was so choked up.
What a beautiful thing, he cares so much about this baby who isn't even here yet that he is willing to get hearing aids at 58.
On a side note, I'll be very glad we won't have to watch the tv on mute when we go over there anymore because the sound of the tv and us talking bothers him. Nothing is more boring than watching golf on mute.
Now my father in law is a big, tough man. He doesn't cry. At least I didn't think he did. When realized what they were he actually had to leave the room he was so choked up.
What a beautiful thing, he cares so much about this baby who isn't even here yet that he is willing to get hearing aids at 58.
On a side note, I'll be very glad we won't have to watch the tv on mute when we go over there anymore because the sound of the tv and us talking bothers him. Nothing is more boring than watching golf on mute.
Monday, January 4, 2010
23/24 week appointment today
Everything looks normal. Apparently I did not gain any weight between my last appointment and today. I am VERY pleased with this, considering this was over the holidays. My goal is to have the same result next month. Don't worry, I am not starving myself. I am a bigger girl to begin with, and my doctor only wants me to gain like another 7 lbs TOTAL. I still have a long way to go! The baby looks good as far as she can tell, pretty much a smooth, easy going appointment.
My grandmother informs me that she has my shower set up for February 20th and plans on inviting around 60 people, yowza! Well, if she wants to and they want to come, more power to them, right? She also went to Target today and bought my travel system which is being discontinued soon. She got 20% off!
On a heavier note, I am getting more and more confused about how we're supposed to pay for the hospital stay. We do not have maternity (which I cry over at least once a week), just regular insurance. My husband is self employed and I'm currently in grad school and unable to find a job to save my life. They're quoting us around $4200 but that doesn't include the anesthia, pediatrician and she said something else. The epidural is $850!!! This is only if we pay BEFORE I go into labor. If we don't? It could cost $2800 to $3800. Just for the epi. RIDICULOUS! What makes the price jump $2k? I really want to know.
We were not planning on having this baby. He is a total surprise. And while I grow to love him more and more each day, I kick myself at the same time for not doing this the "right" way. Me in a stable job, us in a house instead of living next door to his parents in a place that only has one bedroom. I just hope he understands someday that we did the best we could.
My grandmother informs me that she has my shower set up for February 20th and plans on inviting around 60 people, yowza! Well, if she wants to and they want to come, more power to them, right? She also went to Target today and bought my travel system which is being discontinued soon. She got 20% off!
On a heavier note, I am getting more and more confused about how we're supposed to pay for the hospital stay. We do not have maternity (which I cry over at least once a week), just regular insurance. My husband is self employed and I'm currently in grad school and unable to find a job to save my life. They're quoting us around $4200 but that doesn't include the anesthia, pediatrician and she said something else. The epidural is $850!!! This is only if we pay BEFORE I go into labor. If we don't? It could cost $2800 to $3800. Just for the epi. RIDICULOUS! What makes the price jump $2k? I really want to know.
We were not planning on having this baby. He is a total surprise. And while I grow to love him more and more each day, I kick myself at the same time for not doing this the "right" way. Me in a stable job, us in a house instead of living next door to his parents in a place that only has one bedroom. I just hope he understands someday that we did the best we could.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Baby Prep Time!
It is time to start signing up for all the fun classes that will teach us how to not suck at being parents. At least they will attempt to do so. We've decided to take a 5 week Lamaze course, Babycase Basics and Breastfeeding. I plan on trying to breastfeed Henry. I've done a good deal of research on it and it just seems like the right thing for me to do, especially since I am at home and will have the time to do so, at least in the first months. I have no idea how long I will breastfeed, but I figure I'll start out setting small goals for myself and move from there.
Also, while reading the info the doctor gave us on the hospital I will be delivering at, I found out something rather neat. The baby stays in the room with me, if I choose for him to. This way I can be there at all times, learning to recognize his needs and queues and the nurses will be able to better help me in recognizing them. I don't know if this is standard or not these days, but it is the first I've heard of it. Very cool!
Also, while reading the info the doctor gave us on the hospital I will be delivering at, I found out something rather neat. The baby stays in the room with me, if I choose for him to. This way I can be there at all times, learning to recognize his needs and queues and the nurses will be able to better help me in recognizing them. I don't know if this is standard or not these days, but it is the first I've heard of it. Very cool!
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